When "NO" wins "YES"

The last 12 months I have said "YES" to everything. Yes, because I could. Yes, because I had plenty of energy. Yes, because I didn't have another option. Yes, because I didn't have time but I would make it happen. Yes, because I like to try new things and to see where they can take me. Yes, why not? I lost my energy, I “wasted” my time, I lost myself trying to fit in this kind of culture where I don’t belong. I am a mix of cultures.

This has been the year I have traveled the least, compared to recent years, but the truth is that I feel that I have been traveling far away. A place where time goes slow, where questions are the border, where answers are the passport and where the only law is to practice. There I started to realize where all those questions, all my dreams were coming and where all my "goals" were born. The most important feature was to realize what was holding them. I was reading a book “ The code of the extraordinary mind“ by Vishen Lakhiani when I started to cry like a baby, to then stop to start to laugh about the fact that I was crying.

If you know my story or a part of it, you probably know that I am not scared of making decisions. I just make them. I just need to know "why?

Why am I doing a PhD? Why am I eating this or that? Why did I start to meditate or to do yoga? Why she or why not? Why do I have to live with all these rules that I didn’t choose? Why do I believe in him/her? Let’s just keep these questions: diet, professional career, relationships, culture and spiritual life. Sport has always been included in my life. I don’t have any doubts about that. No sport, no shine.

Today, I should have written down my goals but the truth is that for the first time in my life I have stopped having a list of goals (short term, long term… Shut up). I know which is my end goal. It's just one, I keep it short and simple. Also, which are my values and who I am. There is no title to define me and there is not a deadline to find me. There is only one day that counts, that really matters to me and that day is just one.

Love you,

aleX

Aupa Atleti!

If I am here, it is because I am more awake than ever before. I have met WOW people during the last years and specially the last 12 months. Some of them are close friends, my family (My mum, my dad, my sister (my idol) and my dog, Roma); others I have met them in different places where I was living or traveling; others are writers and others I see them every single day in the office. I fucking love all these people and I owe a lot to them.